PUSH IT!

How do you push yourself, i need to challenge, push, kick myself up the backside to unleash the force.... i know im talking in cryptic speak but hey ho whose to know! I am in the oddest of moods right now, you know when something needs to be done, but your not quite sure how ur gonna do it but it is really important to u that it gets done and done as well as you can possibly manage!?? That is my conundrum. I need to be successful! but there are so many things i could do (not that i am blowing my own trumpet, coz no one reads this anyway) but I need to be more decisive in life, with my life, for my life, coz itss mine and no one aint gonna do it for me! Sad but true. I've never been one of these oh il get mum to do it types, but now i feel like i have lost the ability to decide anything i'm "afraid of what might happen" which i know is total bullshit, bcoz if i dont take risks, nothing will ever happen!! AAAHhhhhh things are so fucking frustrating right now...... i am going to go and scream sum more. Tatty bye bye x